(20:07 / Tuesday, May 16, 2006)
set fire to the third bar,
i just came back from tuition and it was dragged on to ALMOST 2hours. and i was fainting. but the teacher taught so many things and she kept saying "take down! it will do you good. it will surely come out during psle." :
'lets all await our death tomorrow for it is to kill..'what kills? MATHS PAPER. what tortures? MATHS PAPER. what makes us suffer? MATHS PAPER. what else kills? STILL MATHS PAPER. i will get prepared to cry tomorrow. everybody says i will surely pass because mrs hum told me that she was very pleased with the effort i put into the paper.
the point is, i dont want to JUST PASS. i want to
pass with an A, or in this case
at least a B! ugh. the more i think about it, oh man. the
feel is terrible.
and - my expectations of myself ARE NOT HIGH. for maths. ITS NOT HIGH. i mean i like expect to get more for languages? i dont know. i assume. i have to. if not my average will be pulled down. its only normal for me to AIM to get higher for other subjects!
AHHHH. (oh yes marie, i do love it.)
we had chinese oral today. and wanglaoshi keeps stressing me. like during the convo, i was thinking of the words to say so i was like 'uh. uh.' and then she kept going 'uhhmm?' and she keeps laughing! i dont know what i said wrongly, unfortunately. stress. SHE STRESSES ME.
speaking of her. she told us today that our higher chinese papers are marked. oooh. i dont really look forward to it.
mrs hum told us the previous day that she couldnt return us our papers cos they needed to trash things out. wow. trash longer?